“I don’t belong here.” I’m sure this sentence is one that most, if not all of us have thought at one point. I think this is especially true when it comes to being a leader. We start to doubt ourselves, our abilities, and our capacity to lead. Believe it or not, this can be a good thing. Proverbs 3:5 states: “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” When you are doubting yourself, it is an opportunity to see God move despite you and your shortcomings.
When we look in the Bible there are hundreds of examples of men and women that God used despite their strengths, weaknesses, and backgrounds. He made a shepherd boy the king of Israel, a man with no speaking talents lead the Israelites out of Egypt, a prostitute rescued two men and in turn was saved herself, and twelve common men were chosen to be Jesus’ closest friends on this earth. God has a way of taking what is broken and making it beautifully unrecognizable.
When the feelings of doubt darken your mind, think back on these three things:
First, it’s okay to fail. I understand there are people who are looking up to you for direction and wisdom, but you are not Jesus. You’re going to mess up. It is your job to lead in a way that points others to Him. You are a mirror: reflect Jesus.
Second, pursue Jesus. Talk to Him, you’re not going to tell Him something He doesn’t already know. Run to Him, His arms are open wide. I want you to be so lost in Jesus that you can’t find your doubt.
Third, allow yourself to be lead. The best teachers can be taught, the best coaches can be coached, and the best leaders can be lead. Never be afraid to learn something new. Go find someone who has been in your shoes; pour into and learn from each other. You will be a better leader for it!
“‘He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.’” John 3:30
You are not enough, but He is.
Sarenah Espeaignnette serves as the Admin and Events Coordinator at Next Level Church, planning all central events and monitoring the assimilation process. New to ministry, she continues to be humbled by the amazing opportunities God presents. In her free time Sarenah enjoys playing sports, binge watching Netflix, and spending time with friends. Sarenah and her husband, Cody, live in Berwick, Maine.